De-lurking and whining, all at once

I've been semi-posting for a while, and I suppose I should make my return official. Look at me, I'm here. Yay.

It's also Valentine's Day, and I'm alone. Again. (Naturally.) I spent last weekend with the people who I consider true friends; the Janes to my Daria. I stayed up all Saturday night and threw a worthless computer out a window. I fixed a 486. I found out that a guy I've had a stupid crush on for months may like me, and realized how useless it would be if he did, because he's eighteen and lives four hours away. I realized how little I amd all my efforts to cheer him up matter to my clinically depressed ex-boyfriend. And they cancelled Daria, yet again, in favor of some stupid MTV show. Bastards. In short, I have had one of the worst days of my life today, and I realize how stupid and insignificant my teenage problems are. Yet they affect me, because I am not Our Heroine. I foolishly let others penetrate my defenses, and I can't say that it hasn't been worth it. But there are _always_ downsides, and I'm seeing one now, as I post on _Usenet_ about my love life or complete lack thereof.

I'm sorry, that really has no place here. I sort of needed to say that, and I apologize for the lack of coherency.

-Mindy

"You will never find true happiness. Whatcha gonna do, cry about it?" -Weird Al Yankovic

Dcode: Ap D+ T7 Wl Q++ Fn^Fr O- Or+Os+Od m-- c MV-- C5X F:101,308 BBd FCJ -DT-- q fJ^fM^fO(Artie :-P) Find the Daria Geek Code at http://www.geocities.com/TelevisonCity/Taping/3017/

Mindy wrote in message news:[email]...

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Nice to hear from you again. No apology required, as far as I can see. You kept a sense of perspective, which is laudable, and your decision to tell us what a bummer of a day you've had may have made a real difference to someone else. Some lurker whose name we'll never know, but who was thinking, "I must be the only one who's having such a miserable time on Valentine's Day," and who felt a little less lonely and isolated after reading your post.

Just my instant reaction, for whatever it's worth; even though it makes me a little self-conscious to re-read what I've written, and think, "Hmm, Mr O'Neill might have written that." <self-mocking smile>

Martin.

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I had a fairly sucky Valentine's Day too, but I convinced myself that it was my tribute to Charles Schulz to celebrate Valentine's Day as Charlie Brown would. Denial: it's creative!

On Tue, 15 Feb 2000 20:29:23 GMT, Tice Rust wrote:

I broke up with my girlfriend yesterday on V-day. I got back together with her today. Man, the only thing worse than when life isn't like TV is when it IS like TV

Kyle, he who means well The Shane Andrews of alt.sports.baseball.chicago-cubs

On the mountaintop, herecomethehawks@hockeymail.....com (Kyle) spake thusly:

At least you got back together. ^_^

-Mindy

"You will never find true happiness. Whatcha gonna do, cry about it?" -Weird Al Yankovic

Dcode: Ap D+ T7 Wl Q++ Fn^Fr O- Or+Os+Od m-- c MV-- C5X F:101,308 BBd FCJ -DT-- q fJ^fM^fO(Artie :-P) Find the Daria Geek Code at http://www.geocities.com/TelevisonCity/Taping/3017/

On Tue, 15 Feb 2000 08:26:33 -0000, "Martin Sylvester" wrote:

Damn. I always felt special for being the only lonely person on VD...

Glenn Olson wrote in message news:[email]...

I'm sure many, many other people with VD also feel lonely.

Oh, you said, "On VD." Ahem. As you were, then.

Martin.

In article , "Martin Sylvester" wrote:

ROTFLMAO! I nearly fell off my chair on that one! Good one, Father.

He who probably couldn't come up with something better if he thought about it for a week, A.J.

Mindy wrote--->

Fagetta 'bout it. There are a lot of people that are lonelier than you out there. Like the people on the mailing list I moniter. Afterall its a schizoid personality disorder mailing list. Of course they probably all don't mind being lonely. Besides you'll find that most teenagers are vapid airheads so why care. I'm 18 my self and I'm beginning to find that you have to embrace and cherish what is most unique about yourself, and always stick to your ridgid dogma.

Ryan Denton "Are you going to let your emotional life be run by Time Magazine?"-Allen Ginsberg{-_-}

Not that that ever helps. Like breaking your arm and someone saying "other people have broken their arms". It doesn't hurt any less, and I still only have two arms, and one's broken. not very good odds.

But if you like to hear there are other people lonely, the Lanthorn (college newspaper) had a poll and one third said "I hate Valentine's day because I don't have a date", one third said "I'd like Valentine's day if I had a date", and 14% said they just hate Valentine's day.

Dagny

http://firefly.cc.st

"This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper." -T.S. Eliot

Daria code: Ap D+ T5 W1 Q+ Fn^Fr O+ OH m c MV- C5X F:113,201,305 BB+ FCJ -DT+ q+ fT^fD

On 15 Feb 2000 19:27:10 GMT, [email] (Ryan Denton) wrote:

Heh. When I turned 20, I discovered chaos magick; and from there developed the idea that you have to always challenge your rigid dogma.

3 years later, I've learned it really pisses people off when you challenge their dogma...

In article , [email] (Mindy) wrote:

[VENT]

When you gotta vent, you gotta vent. Better this newsgroup than any other, neh?

Which is better, Highs and Lows, or a constant steady level of neither? He asked, being of the latter.

I recently installed winlinux

Ryan Denton "Are you going to let your emotional life be run by Time Magazine?"-Allen Ginsberg{-_-}

Mindy wrote:

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"If you where happy all the time you wouldn't be human, you'd be a game show host"

And I'm sure everybody on *this* NG knows which movie that came from.

"Mike Morton" wrote in message news:[email]...

Guess again.

On the mountaintop, Mike Morton spake thusly:

*shameful*

What movie?

-Mindy

"You will never find true happiness. Whatcha gonna do, cry about it?" -Weird Al Yankovic

Dcode: Ap D+ T7 Wl Q++ Fn^Fr O- Or+Os+Od m-- c MV-- C5X F:101,308 BBd FCJ -DT-- q fJ^fM^fO(Artie :-P) Find the Daria Geek Code at http://www.geocities.com/TelevisonCity/Taping/3017/

Heathers, probably the most Dariaesque movie made! :-)

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ This seems dead, anybody know somewhere else that has Daria code definitions?

I really doubt that... it's been a while since I've seen it, but as I recall there was "yay! sex!" stuff and the perpetuation of the outcast = someone who will blow up the school idea, which is really not what we need.

Dagny

http://firefly.cc.st

"This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper." -T.S. Eliot

Daria code: Ap D+ T5 W1 Q+ Fn^Fr O+ OH m c MV- C5X F:113,201,305 BB+ FCJ -DT+ q+ fT^fD

Try http://www.geocities.com/TelevisionCity/Taping/3017/Daria_Code.txt. :-) It worked for me just now.

--J.

On the mountaintop, Shez spake thusly:

That wasn't the bad part... the bad part came a few hours later.

Hehe... no, this was a different computer. Although we were ready to throw the 486 out the window as well after working on it for six hours.

[Linux]

Yeah, Joe kept telling us to put Linux on it, and we kept telling him to go to hell (this computer is a gift for someone who doesn't have time to learn a new OS).

"You will never find true happiness. Whatcha gonna do, cry about it?" -Weird Al Yankovic

Dcode: Ap D+ T7 Wl Q++ Fn^Fr O- Or+Os+Od m-- c MV-- C5X F:101,308 BBd FCJ -DT-- q fJ^fM^fO(Artie :-P) Find the Daria Geek Code at http://www.geocities.com/TelevisonCity/Taping/3017/

Shez wrote:

If you think *that* one's a downer, try listening to Gilbert O'Sullivan's other hit, "Get Down". There's a reason you never hear it on any of those "70's nostalgia" radio shows/stations.

MIKE (a.k.a. "Progbear")

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"The world of the heterosexual is a sick and boring life." --Edith Massey

N.P.:"Los Endos"- G e n e s i s / A T r i c k O f T h e T a i l

I hate Valentine's Day because for so long I didn't have anyone to celebrate Valentine's Day with, and then when I finally had someone to celebrate Valentine's Day with it became so transparently schmaltzy and oversweet. I hate the notion that there's this one day out there on our calendars where so many of us can feel like total and complete losers...and as someone pointed out, it's much harder having someone and not being able to spend Valentine's Day with that person than it is to be alone, because at least when you're alone you know that you have a good explanation for the emptiness inside...and the whole idea that this is supposed to be a day to celebrate "love" is ludicrous...if you're going to celebrate love, why not do it all year long instead of one stupid little day?

LOL...okay, rant time over...

LI, who's been busy lately

yes!! and i got cards and i wasn't single and i still felt like a loser. :(

and i agree with this as well.

On 18 Feb 2000 13:26:48 GMT, [email] (Dagny Scott) wrote:

Not sure. Personally, I saw Winona Ryder's character as a bit of an outcast as well which (IMO) balanced out the 'blow up the school' bit.

Also, I do admit that I often disregard the possible messages of a film if I enjoy it. IE I liked it, and didn't really concern myself with the fact that it's 'not what we need.'

I think movies should have some responsibility for social impact. I mean, otherwise... I mean, "Triumph of the Will" was a well-made film, but....

let's just say Nazis are not what we need :)

Dagny

http://firefly.cc.st

"This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper." -T.S. Eliot

Daria code: Ap D+ T5 W1 Q+ Fn^Fr O+ OH m c MV- C5X F:113,201,305 BB+ FCJ -DT+ q+ fT^fD

Well, I don't think she's married to him. I think it's fairly common for an Irish name, not that there's a lot of Irish people around here, but anyway. There's got to be a bunch somewhere. Ireland, I guess.

They're more likely to START something by being paranoid. I mean, the murderers thought (probably rightly, although they overreacted) that the school system was opressive towards them... and with enough of that, and their mentality, there were murders. Now we're giving them more reason to feel opressed? grrr....

Dagny

http://firefly.cc.st

"This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper." -T.S. Eliot

Daria code: Ap D+ T5 W1 Q+ Fn^Fr O+ OH m c MV- C5X F:113,201,305 BB+ FCJ -DT+ q+ fT^fD

Martin Sylvester wrote:

It similar, but not identical to "Paradise by the Dashboard Light" by Jim Steinman, as sung by Meatloaf and Ellen Foley.

"I'll never break my promise, or forget my vow, but God only knows what I can do right now: I'm prayin' for the end of time..."

Peace Kevin

KTrick45 wrote in message news:[email]...

You win your two points, and a bonus for correction! 8-)

Martin.

Martin Sylvester wrote:

Coolness, Father!! I'll have to print one up. Do you have a t-shirt, and if so, do you wear it around? :)

Oh, and I'm sorta voluntary myself. But that's more out of my personal code of living, which I'm sure needs no explanation. And as an extra bit of irony, I'm listening to a repeat loop of "Do Ya Wanna Touch Me" by Gary Glitter while typing this out. LOL.

LI

On 18 Feb 2000 13:21:51 GMT, [email] (Dagny Scott) wrote:

Not voluntarily.

I have come to accept the concept that my own behavior has had an effect on my love life (or lack thereof) and thus I cannot claim it as truly involuntary.

ahhh but is your behaviour voluntary?